Monday, November 17, 2008

the long and boring road




the "new" calea bucuresti (bucharest road) from both sides . after extensive work they changed everything , road (added 2 lanes) , sidewalks , public lighting , parkings , bus stops and so on . i guess it's better now but it's boring , no more trees just asphalt and ugly apartment buildings .



True colors - Cindy Lauper
i remembered this song watching the new episode of "cold case" . love the show for bringing back beautiful songs .
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after 16 months of pain I thought I’m finally over it . moved on in a way . the last 3 months were ok , empty , hollow but better . everything was somewhere deep , hidden somehow in my soul and in my mind . i knew i still have it but it wasn’t on the surface and the pain was different , easier to bear . you have to let it go and move on … everybody is telling you the same . and it works in time even if in the beginning you don’t believe it . it works only if you stay away . if you really want to forget you have to stay away . but last night i saw that just a little sign can bring back the feelings so fast you don’t even have time to prepare for the pain . it wasn’t so bad , just a moment of weakness and i was able to control it but i can’t afford it anymore . if you have to forget you have to do it all the way through .

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